Let’s face it… Lately, I’ve been in a funk. The to-do list is miles high. Emotions are running everywhere. And it feels like I’m staring at a sea of clouds, rolling in, intangible, dark and brooding.
There is a lot going on and I haven’t had a lot of down time. It’s not all bad stuff either. Running through two rooms at Mission Escape Games was pure delight. But I guess I’ve always needed a bit of reflection time and I haven’t taken enough of it. In the times I’ve had to myself, I’ve been so overwhelmed by the list of things to do that I’ve opted instead for distraction. That in itself can be therapeutic. It just doesn’t get things done.
It’s been four months since my last haircut. I have my taxes still to do. There is clutter everywhere. Laundry too. Oh, food? That’d be nice. I need to read through book three once more so I can hunt for typos and release it. Make another book shirt. Keep up with the blog here. Keep getting the word out on books one and two. And try a crazy activity like vacuuming.
There is, of course, a lot to do for work too. And keeping up with family and friends. Starting up an exercise routine. Working through my sleep issues. And having time to unwind.
So right now I’m sitting on the edge of a sea of clouds, overlooking a murky mess, my heart tugged toward sadness. Yet I know that in the distance the sun is there, shining strong, guiding me to walk through the clouds and reach the brilliance beyond.
It’s okay to feel the gray wash over me. Life is such that we are full of emotions and we can’t deny them to ourselves. We shouldn’t wallow for long, of course, but day is not a day unless it is truncated by the night. And though we often sleep through the darkness and avoid it, still it completes the cycle and cleanses us. It prepares us for the day, for the light.